I am re-committing myself today. Today I am going to start Turbo Jam over. I have been feeling good long enough that I am comfortable exercising again. I really need the outlet. While things have gotten much better on the home front,things have gotten much, much worse at work. It is stressful, and depressing, and is starting to affect other areas of my life. Hopefully, by de-stressing with exercise, the bad won't seem THAT bad.
I ate good all weekend... super proud of myself. I had oatmeal for breakfast, and a tuna kit for lunch. I had an apple for a snack, but it wasn't that good. I ended up taking a few bites and tossing it. I had almonds for my snack instead.
Tonight when I get home, I am going to do my workout - and hopefully walk Harley too.
So even though its really Day 51 - today is Day 1, as I begin again.
Monday, May 3, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
EPIC FAILURE.
THAT'S RIGHT. EPIC FAILURE.
I didn't work out last night as I had planned. I have got to get motivated to MOVE! This weight is not going to lose itself.
Shame on me. I have no one to blame but myself for the way I look, and the way I feel.
I didn't work out last night as I had planned. I have got to get motivated to MOVE! This weight is not going to lose itself.
Shame on me. I have no one to blame but myself for the way I look, and the way I feel.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Slipping....
It's been too long. Too long since I have posted on here, too long since I have worked out, and too long since I have seen results. The good news is, I am as determined as ever. I have not gained any weight back. And I am still following my diet. Now, I just have to get back to working out. I am starting Turbo Jam over - at the beginning - starting today.
I have been on emotional roller coaster for the last month. I have been sad, and overwhelmed, and angry, and stressed out, and surprisingly enough, happy at times too. I remember when I first started working out, and how much that release of energy helped as a mood stabilizer. I am looking forward to getting that back. I am looking forward to working hard and reaching my goals. I am looking forward to a lot of things. I just gotta push past all the bullshit I am surrounded by now.
I have to quit worrying about what everyone else is thinking and doing and get back to me, and my family and my friends. Maybe I need to meditate. Except for the fact I am not sure what it is, or how to do it, or what it accomplishes.
I have been on emotional roller coaster for the last month. I have been sad, and overwhelmed, and angry, and stressed out, and surprisingly enough, happy at times too. I remember when I first started working out, and how much that release of energy helped as a mood stabilizer. I am looking forward to getting that back. I am looking forward to working hard and reaching my goals. I am looking forward to a lot of things. I just gotta push past all the bullshit I am surrounded by now.
I have to quit worrying about what everyone else is thinking and doing and get back to me, and my family and my friends. Maybe I need to meditate. Except for the fact I am not sure what it is, or how to do it, or what it accomplishes.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Another Day
I am not really in the mood to do this today - I have to many other things on my mind. However, here is a quick update. I took Lori and Krista's advice and bought lots of yummmy foods at the store last night. I did not get to take Harley for a walk. I worked my little butt off last night trying to get everything else done. I started my food diary again yesterday, and have kept up with it today.
Cereal bar for breakfast (within 30 minutes of waking up, Thank You Lori).
Apple and peanut butter for mid morning snack.
Tuna kit for lunch with a piece of string cheese.
And a granola bar for a mid afternoon snack (but I haven't eaten that yet...)
Tonight is going to be busy. I have changed my plans like, 4 times. But Madie has her school play tonight, and we get the kids after. Then homework, bathtime, bedtime, and finally some relax time for Matt and I. And I need it after the day I have had. So, knowing all of this, I took a mile walk on my lunch today. I needed to de-stress anyway.
Cereal bar for breakfast (within 30 minutes of waking up, Thank You Lori).
Apple and peanut butter for mid morning snack.
Tuna kit for lunch with a piece of string cheese.
And a granola bar for a mid afternoon snack (but I haven't eaten that yet...)
Tonight is going to be busy. I have changed my plans like, 4 times. But Madie has her school play tonight, and we get the kids after. Then homework, bathtime, bedtime, and finally some relax time for Matt and I. And I need it after the day I have had. So, knowing all of this, I took a mile walk on my lunch today. I needed to de-stress anyway.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Wayyyyyy behind.
Okay Ladies. I need you guys to virtually kick my ass into gear here please.
I am behind. Way behind. I have not been able to work out for pretty much the last two weeks because of either my Kidney Stone, or my back. I don't want to lose focus. I was really bad this weekend. I drank entirely too much - starting on Wednesday. I tried to be good Sat night with Dana, and order nachos - but then we got the loaded nacho's. I know it's not the worst thing in the world, but I certainly did not make a smart choice there. I am getting bored with the foods I have. To be honest, I am scared to work out because of my back. I am just now starting to feel better, but I am still taking Doans, and a muscle relaxer. I just don't know about jumping back into Turbo Jam. I have not kept my food diary in a week. I am losing focus.
I got on the scale this morning, and I have put 4.2 lbs BACK ON. I am back up to 214.2. Now, that is still below what my goal was for last month (214.4), but if I can't get back on track soon, I am going to lose a lot of the hard work that I have already put in. The pants that I bought a few weeks ago are loose, but my fat jeans that started all this mess still don't fit right. They just seem to damn tight. Ugh.
I felt really good about the way I looked Saturday night when Dana and I went out, but once I saw the pictures we took, to me, it looks like nothing has changed. And I am taking the "before" picture tonight. Maybe If I have to look at my fat self in a sports bra and shorts everyday, it will remind me of what I don't want to be.
Also, you ladies may be seeing a new name pop up on here now and then. I have invited my cousin Lori to be a part of this and kick my ass. Lori lives in Memphis, TN. She has her own AMAZING story. This strong, beautiful woman over came a lot of obstacles, and is a great inspiration to me, and what I am trying to do. This woman LOST 130 POUNDS!!! And did it the right way, with diet and exercise. So welcome her, and Lori, don't be afraid to yell at me. My girls will back YOU up, as I have asked everyone here to team up on me, and put me in check when I need it. :O)
Soooo... It's about 2:30. I have had an upset stomach all morning - I mean painful. I have been scared to eat, and not because of the weight, but because I was afraid of making it hurt worse. So then, I started thinking. I wonder if these are hunger pains? I really hadn't eaten since yesterday afternoon, so I made myself go get something to eat. Spaghettio's (Carbs, yes, I know.), Yogurt for protein (Thank you Krista and Lori), and I bought a can of almonds to keep here at work for a snack... For later today, or the rest of the week. I am going to walk Harley tonight, instead of Turbo, since I am still worried about my back. If I can go 3 days with no pain, then I will start Turbo and weight lifting again. Anyway, after my walk, I am going to stain my hot tub, and then go to the grocery. I need to re-stock all my good for you foods. And Lori and Krista, thank you so much for all the helpful ideas on the foods. :O)
Now, I just hope my tummy feels better once this food is digested.
I am behind. Way behind. I have not been able to work out for pretty much the last two weeks because of either my Kidney Stone, or my back. I don't want to lose focus. I was really bad this weekend. I drank entirely too much - starting on Wednesday. I tried to be good Sat night with Dana, and order nachos - but then we got the loaded nacho's. I know it's not the worst thing in the world, but I certainly did not make a smart choice there. I am getting bored with the foods I have. To be honest, I am scared to work out because of my back. I am just now starting to feel better, but I am still taking Doans, and a muscle relaxer. I just don't know about jumping back into Turbo Jam. I have not kept my food diary in a week. I am losing focus.
I got on the scale this morning, and I have put 4.2 lbs BACK ON. I am back up to 214.2. Now, that is still below what my goal was for last month (214.4), but if I can't get back on track soon, I am going to lose a lot of the hard work that I have already put in. The pants that I bought a few weeks ago are loose, but my fat jeans that started all this mess still don't fit right. They just seem to damn tight. Ugh.
I felt really good about the way I looked Saturday night when Dana and I went out, but once I saw the pictures we took, to me, it looks like nothing has changed. And I am taking the "before" picture tonight. Maybe If I have to look at my fat self in a sports bra and shorts everyday, it will remind me of what I don't want to be.
Also, you ladies may be seeing a new name pop up on here now and then. I have invited my cousin Lori to be a part of this and kick my ass. Lori lives in Memphis, TN. She has her own AMAZING story. This strong, beautiful woman over came a lot of obstacles, and is a great inspiration to me, and what I am trying to do. This woman LOST 130 POUNDS!!! And did it the right way, with diet and exercise. So welcome her, and Lori, don't be afraid to yell at me. My girls will back YOU up, as I have asked everyone here to team up on me, and put me in check when I need it. :O)
Soooo... It's about 2:30. I have had an upset stomach all morning - I mean painful. I have been scared to eat, and not because of the weight, but because I was afraid of making it hurt worse. So then, I started thinking. I wonder if these are hunger pains? I really hadn't eaten since yesterday afternoon, so I made myself go get something to eat. Spaghettio's (Carbs, yes, I know.), Yogurt for protein (Thank you Krista and Lori), and I bought a can of almonds to keep here at work for a snack... For later today, or the rest of the week. I am going to walk Harley tonight, instead of Turbo, since I am still worried about my back. If I can go 3 days with no pain, then I will start Turbo and weight lifting again. Anyway, after my walk, I am going to stain my hot tub, and then go to the grocery. I need to re-stock all my good for you foods. And Lori and Krista, thank you so much for all the helpful ideas on the foods. :O)
Now, I just hope my tummy feels better once this food is digested.
Friday, April 16, 2010
1 Month Results!
Weigh in Day!!! 1 month Results!!!
DUN DUN DUNNNNNNN!!!!
Weight: 224.2
210.0
Height: 5'10
Chest: 46.5
44.o
Waist: 46.0
42
Hips: 49.0
47.0
Thighs: 25.5
24.5
Arms: 13
12.5
Thats 14.4 lbs weight loss, and a loss of 11.5 inches combined! Yay me! I not only met, I exceeded my one month goal. Oh! The motivation!!! And, I just bought myself a new shirt to reward myself. :O)
DUN DUN DUNNNNNNN!!!!
Weight: 224.2
210.0
Height: 5'10
Chest: 46.5
44.o
Waist: 46.0
42
Hips: 49.0
47.0
Thighs: 25.5
24.5
Arms: 13
12.5
Thats 14.4 lbs weight loss, and a loss of 11.5 inches combined! Yay me! I not only met, I exceeded my one month goal. Oh! The motivation!!! And, I just bought myself a new shirt to reward myself. :O)
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