It’s been a while again.
I have been having some health issues lately. My migraines have been out of control. I have been in bed for weeks at a time, have
tried more medications than I can count, have been through countless tests – and
my head still hurts. One of the biggest
things that they have done is changed my birth control multiple times because the
hormones trigger severe migraines. So I
had one last stop before the IUD or getting my tubes tied – to the depo shot.
It is well documented that one of the main side effects of the shot is weight
gain. OF COURSE this would hit me. I don’t know the exact number, because I
haven’t been back to the OBGYN, but based on the number at the Family Doc last
week, I’m guessing I’ve put on about 20 pounds in about 6 weeks. On November 24th, I weighed in at
my heaviest in YEARS – 244. I haven’t
had a period in a while, and probably won’t because of the shot. I was on crazy meds because of the migraines.
So I don’t know if I was holding water because of one or both, or if it’s all
from the shot, but I was devastated. 244
pounds. How did I let it get to this
again?
I have got to be realistic.
Now is the time of year when I am the worst. I suffer from seasonal depression. I want to crawl in a hole and come out in
April. I don’t want to do anything other
than lay on the couch under a blanket. I
can’t set myself up to fail – again. I
can’t say I’m going to work out 5 days a week when I know I’m not going to, so
I want to start with small goals. Drink
more water. Walk 15 minutes a day. Something.
Anything. I just can’t. I won’t.
I won’t start out 2016 over 240 pounds.
I won’t. Today, didn’t wake up
with a headache, and I brought my water.
Today, I will meet my water goals, and walk for 15 minutes. Today, I will start again.
